Oubliette - (noun, french) a little place of forgetting. A small, windowless room where someone is locked away, forgotten, left to go mad.
This is my personal place to rant and rave like the lunatic I am, my oubliette. It's dark, quiet, and I come here to forget about things. Or maybe to remember them. After all, where does insanity end, and insight begin?
Sunday, October 31, 2004
eclipse photos now up
The eclipse photos are now up on Flickr. Head over and check them out. The series is of the first half of the eclipse. I didn't get a chance to take photos of the moon returning to full.
carnival of the cats #32
Saturday, October 30, 2004
cat-o'-lantern
Friday, October 29, 2004
weekly critter roundup
friday cat blogging
This is Amon, a.k.a. Grump, Lard-Butt, or Old Man as he was most often called. Amon wandered into my life in 1997, shortly after my husband and I got Noah. He was a stray, but had been someone's pet since he was neutered and declawed. No one in the apartment complex claimed him, so he decided to own us, and teach that brat kitten already living there a thing or two. He was not a young kitty then, at least 7 by the vet's best estimate.
Amon disappeared from my soon-to-be-ex-husband's house about 6 months ago after getting into a fight with a neighborhood cat. All we found was wads of his fur, which was common after he wrestled with Noah. He was the only one of the 4 cats we couldn't keep inside. He'd been a stray/indoor/outdoor cat for so long that he was intolerable if he didn't get to go outside for a little bit each day. I prefer to keep cats indoors, however, Amon would cry, scatch, and try to sneak out a door when we tried on multiple occasions to make him a pure indoor cat. We weren't able to break so many years of habit.
Amon would have been 14+ on Halloween; that's close to when he adopted us and his "birthday". He wandered into our lives and wandered out again. Whether he adopted someone else or passed on, i hope he is at rest. So much for a happy post for today.
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
tonight's lunar eclipse
NASA's site on the eclipse - complete with start and end times, adusted for each time zone. Also contains links to webcasts of tonight's eclipse.
update - Friday, October 29, 2004 - 08:30
It did clear off here by the time the beginning of the eclipse was visible, about 2030 CDT. I was able to take some high resolution digital pictures of the event, some of which will be in the album later today or tomorrow. I took pictures about every 1-5 minutes during the partial eclipse and about every minute during the total eclipse. I haven't pulled the pictures off the camera yet, so I don't know how well the shots of the total eclipse turned out. The camera was having difficulties "seeing" the moon because it was so dark. Also, my hand wasn't the steadiest at all times, even when using a vehicle or anyting else to steady the camera on.
frankenstein's kittens
As much as I'll make fun of little bio-engineered terrors, this is the kitty I'd seriously consider getting cloned. Noah is my personal little terror, has been my buddy for 8 years now, and is a very special kitty.
Monday, October 25, 2004
thoughts and musings - romanticism
Which explains my taste in music. I'll create playlist or custom CD that invariably tends to be on the depressing side. Who Wants to Live Forever by Queen, Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls, or Bring Me to Life by Evanescence are not the most uplifting songs in the world. They are good examples of what I listen to. That type of song is definitely not fluff, which is all too often produced.
This reminds me of a comment about a custom CD of mine along the lines of 'that selection makes you want to go ahead and shoot yourself.' So, being the smartass I am, I got a Sharpie and wrote on my newly burned CD "Just Go Ahead and Shoot Yourself" for the title.
Gratuitous picture, just because I can.
William Blake Archive
Selected Poetry of Lord Byron
carnival of the cats
Thursday, October 21, 2004
election 2004
You preferred Bush's statements 33% of the time
You preferred Kerry's statements 67% of the time Voting purely on the issues you should vote Kerry Who would you vote for if you voted on the issues? Find out now! |
Of course, every 4 years I find myself looking at the candiates, shaking my head, and saying "This is what we have to choose from? This country is so screwed."
flu vaccine shortage, part 2
Prison inmates are getting vaccinated while those who are elderly and sick can't find any. I just hope those inmates getting it are at very high risk of death. I understand not wanting an outbreak in a confined population, like a prison. There's an easy way to prevent it. Isolation. Keep the prisoners isolated as much as possible during this flu season to prevent the spread of the disease.
I'm considered to be at high-risk of developing complications from the flu because I'm 1. a health-care worker, 2. have a chronic illness (which I will not get into right now), and 3. have a weakened immune system from medications. Ya know what, I'm NOT getting a flu shot this year because while I'll probably get the flu, and may develop some complications, it's highly unlikely that I'll die from it. Elderly people on home/portable oxygen are a whole lot more likely to die than I am, so I'll let someone else have mine, like my grandmother. That's what it boils down to. I'd rather be sick, hate life for a week or two, maybe even develop pneumonia and have to take antibiotics than have my grandmother with emphysema die from the flu. We're both high risk, we both should get vaccinated, and neither of us can get the nasal spray vaccine. I'll take my chances.
Monday, October 18, 2004
cloned kitten eats woman's face
Or else he wants some kitty treats.
So, here are all 3 of the world's cloned kittens. Hmmm...kittens from the same litter can also look the same, maybe I need to get some "clones" of my own and make lots of $$.
I can't believe that hussy of a Persian would stoop so low to win.
Read the Story
rainy monday
Thursday, October 14, 2004
flu season is almost here
http://www.cnn.com/2004/HEALTH/10/12/flu.vac.cnn/
That's 48 million Americans who won't get the vaccination this year. Hell, there's a good chance not everybody who's at high risk for complications (like oh, say, death) will be able to get it, much less the average relatively healthy person. If you've never had the pleasure of experiencing the flu, count your blessings.
Oh, how to tell the difference between a cold and the flu?
Cold: Sniffle, sniffle, cough, cough. Ya know, I don't feel so great.
The Flu: Hack, wheeze, hack, wheeze. Somebody, please shoot me now.
Wednesday, October 13, 2004
writer's block
Sunday, October 10, 2004
first post
Welcome all to my blog. I know that this being my first post, it's nothing stellar. Oh, well, what the hell.
Friday, October 01, 2004
100 things about me
Edit, 8/1/06 - Updated version here.
- I live in the general vicinity of Huntsville, in Northern Alabama
- I was born in Seymour, Indiana, John Cougar Mellencamp's "Small Town"
- I'm 6 feet 1 inch tall, and weigh, well, a little more than I should, but not much
- I have greenish-hazel eyes
- My hair is shoulder length, wavy, and light brown/red/blonde, depending on the light and how much it's bleached out by the sun
- I have a wonderful husband, who is more understanding of me than anyone in this world, including myself
- We were separated for 18 months when we stopped being friends, and I didn't think he was so wonderful
- I didn't think I was so wonderful during that time, either
- I have a little sister, 2 1/2 years younger than I, who lives in Indiana, with her husband and their two boys
- My parents live on the family farm, in Indiana
- My closest relatives, aside from my husband, are 300 miles away, in Indiana
- I have only a few close friends, who mean more to me than they know
- I have 3 cats living in my house
- My parents have my other cat
- There is also a squirrel and a fish living here
- And my brother-in-law (husband's brother), and his 2 cats
- I have a degree in studio art
- Graphic design is the best way to have an art degree and still be able to eat
- I taught myself everything I know about HTML and JavaScript
- I tend to hand-code websites, rather than let a WYSIWYG editor screw up the code
- I'm not happy unless the code looks good, too
- I've had my degree for 4 years now
- I've been an EMT for 10 years
- I'm specially trained in vehicle extrication - using the "Jaws of Life"TM
- I've been doing that for 9 years
- I can't remember how many people I've seen die
- The one that haunts me to this day is the 14 year old boy who looked into my eyes and then died on the stretcher in front of me, and there was nothing I could do. That was 7 years ago
- There really wasn't anything anyone could have done for him. His injuries from the vehicle wreck were too severe
- Insomnia sucks
- I love the rain
- Storms are one of nature's most beautiful and powerful events, which I respect for their destructive, but not fear
- I am a National Weather Service trained storm spotter, which gives me an excuse to admire the beauty of a storm, while serving the greater good, should it turn severe
- I believe in helping people for the sake of helping
- I don't do it because The Church tells me I have to
- I believe that everyone perceives the Divine differently, and cultures give him/her/it different names - God, Jehovah, Allah, Shiva, Budda, The Great Spirit. All beliefs are valid, and everyone should be allowed to worship in his or her own way, with certain restrictions, without fear of repercussion
- Those restrictions include no cruelty to animals or humans; nothing that endangers a minor (handling of dangerous animals, consumption of drugs); displays of public lewdness; other things that are currently covered by U.S. law
- I believe civil unions between homosexuals should be allowed
- I think there are abilities that some people have that cannot be explained by science. Call it psychic powers, magick, or whatever you want, it does exist.
- My favorite colors are green and purple
- I love to bum around the house in my pajamas
- I've worn my pajamas to the store
- Memory foam matress toppers are wonderful
- I have Crohn's Disease and Ankylosing Spondylitis, both of which are autoimmune disorders
- I've learned to adapt to both, since I've had the CD for 19 years and the AS probably for about 14 years - AS is harder to diagnose, so it was misdiagnosed for several years as simple arthritis
- I take a metric assload of drugs to keep both under control. In EMS we refer to folks like me as taking the WFP
- I have a twisted sense of humor
- It's taken me about 17 years to accept that I can't do everything I want, that I have limits, and to allow myself to be taken care of when I need to be
- I'm a better patient for the doctors and nurses at the office or hospital than I am to my family or friends who are healthcare workers
- My regular physician is also a part-time ER doc, so he tells me to stop being a patient, and to stop bringing him patients
- I am an INTP
- I am a genius, and could join MENSA, if I really wanted to
- I do know some rocket science
- I often get so involved in what I'm doing that I forget about my own physical needs - eating, drinking, sleeping
- I'm glad breathing is automatic because of that
- I do loose track of time, not just hours but days at a time
- I grew up on a 80+ acre farm
- I can knit, crochet, cross-stitch, embroider, sew, spin, and weave
- I also can grow a sucessful vegetable garden, and I am able to can, dehydrate, and pickle foods I grow
- I can milk a cow, sheep, or goat, make butter, butcher meat, make sausages, bake bread, make pasta, and do about anything else in the kitchen, completely from scratch
- I choose not to usually, because it's so much faster to use partially prepared foods
- Unless I'm bored, then baking is a great way to pass a few hours, and exercise my arms
- I'm mostly of German descent, with some Swiss and Scotch-Irish thrown in for good measure
- One of my ultimate comfort foods is chicken and spatzle
- Latkes and sour cream is another, which I don't make often enough, from scratch
- My other ultimate comfort food is mac and cheese
- I'm addicted to sushi
- I will try almost anything once
- I thoroughly enjoy a cup of fresh brewed coffee made from just-ground beans, with just a touch of cream
- Coffee gives me migraines
- I can't speak or write German, and can read only a little bit of it
- Ditto with Latin, Italian, and Greek
- I do read, write, and speak French
- If I try to speak Spanish, it comes out this weird concoction of French-Italian-Latin-Spanglish
- I learned to read Latin, Italian, and Greek from studying Art History
- I speak feline fluently, and cats know this
- Dogs aren't my favorite animal, but I won't turn away one in need of help either
- I really don't like heights
- I can grit my teeth and work at heights, if necessary, and have had to do so as an EMT
- Painting is something that helps me stay focused on what is important in life
- I don't paint nearly often enough
- You're still reading this? You must be more bored than I am
- My favorite place in the entire world is the Great Smoky Mountains National Park
- That is the one place where I can always feel at peace, regardless of what is going on in my life
- I came very close to saying "fuck it all" one weekend, quitting my job, and staying in Tennessee, just so I could be in the mountains every day. It didn't matter that it meant I would have been living out of my tent in the campground for a few weeks until I got another job, apartment, etc.
- I had actually looked for places that would hire me in the area that weekend, including the National Park Service
- I get destructive when I get depressed, which is why I love vehicle rescue - I can tear a car to pieces and still help a patient
- I really need to get back to the mountains, 6 months is too long to be away
- I enjoy camping, being close to nature
- I will camp during any season, in a tent
- I have camped anytime from late February through late October, and ridden out severe and tornadic thunderstorms in my tent
- The one time I left the campground, my tent was blown over during the storm. Everything inside remained dry. I really like that tent.
- I love reading sci-fi and fantasy stories, including J. R. R. Tolkien, Frank Herbert's Dune series, Anne McCaffery's Pern series and The Ship Who... series, Sharon Shinn, Stephen Lawhead, and Orson Scott Card's Tales of Alvin Maker (it's set in magical frontier Indiana, describing places I grew up near) to name a few
- Some of my favorite movies include the Lord of the Rings Trilogy, Hannibal Lecter trilogy, Moulin Rouge, Harry Potter, The Princess Bride, Labrynth, The Dark Crystal
- CSI, CSI Miami, CSI NY, MI-5, Rescue Me, Stargate SG-1, Stargate Atlantis, and Farscape are the only TV shows I watch. Well, and the Weather Channel.
- Have I mentioned insomnia sucks?
- Some of my favorite singers/songwriters are Peter Gabriel, Billy Joel, Elton John, Evanescence, U2, Queen, and Sisters of Mercy
- I like to write poetry, and sometimes I even think it's pretty good, so it gets posted here, where I inflict it upon the world at large
- I am my worst critic
- I need to not over-analyize my artwork as much, and just create it, accept not everything will be a masterpiece
- My email signature, which has been one of my favorite quotes for quite a long time.
All that is gold does not glitter
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither
Deep roots are not reached by the frost
- Gandalf the Grey
Fellowship of the Ring, J. R. R. Tolkien - I really should be asleep right now, but of course, the insomnia has kicked in again.